Boom.

I guess I should be happy, it’s the thought that counts right? Well no, I’m pissed. What the fuck is wrong with you. Seriously you need to make up your mind or you’re about to lose a good friend. Just because I care so much about you doesn’t mean I’m afraid to walk away. You know that about me. I’m not gonna compete, none of that. I’m about to just quit. I don’t need this stupid bullshit. I don’t know if I’m gonna even be around when you make up your mind. There is always something that ruins shit. We can’t keep playing these games, I’m done with it. I won’t apologize, it’s your fault this time.

I’ll wait for until you finish your fight, I’ll wait for you until the time is right.

I like to get things right the first try. It frustrates me and makes me so angry when I can’t do things perfect right away. I know it’ll take practice and getting used to, but ugh I’m so disappointed with myself.

First day of work was today, it was alright. I could’ve done better. Hopefully I’ll start to get the hang of things.